my parents caught me on skype and read like ALL my conversations :\ im pretty sure they know the extent of our relationship now BUT maybe they dont care? idk, i hope not, im REALLY considering getting enough money together and just flying to you cos my life is a tad bit miserable cos im banned from my computer and i wont be able to weasel my way out of it this time, im sorry. I love you <3
I just reread through our Skype conversations and I feel AWFUL, I'm so so sorry! Did your parents read the messages about the ribbon?! I'm sooooo so so sorry I shouldn't have asked you to get Skype. What did your parents say to you when they read through the messages we sent each other? I bet they really hate me, I shouldn't have sent some of the stuff I sent. They probably think I get drunk by drinking loads of cider too, stupid cider. I really hate myself for telling you to get Skype, I don't mind if you hate me a bit because I completely deserve to be hated right now. I don't really know what to say because I can't put into words how sorry I am and if I could be in NC right now I would be. If you want I can phone your parents and try to explain that everything's my fault if you think that'll help. I really love you and I'm really sorry. <3
I dont hate you, its okay, i dont really care about not being able to use my computer but i hate being unable to talk to you every day. My parents pretty much hated me already and they havent told me their opinion on you yet, but no matter what, i will always love you <3
i am currently thinking about leaving here for good right now because no one here likes me or wants me around because im just a burden. If i left i could be with you even sooner <3
also i wont be on much due to combined rehearsal for chorus cos we have a performance on monday, then ill be on for a little less than a week at least once a day, then i dont have robotics anymore, i have a computer class next semester though
i probably wont, i have too much stress on m shoulders to enjoy things at the moment i have loads of things i need to get done and then a performance on monday, i need to relax before then but i just cant
I just stuffed my face with food and I'm eating loads of birthday cake tomorrow so I think I'm gonna start going to the gym or something so that I don't get fat or anything. I really don't wanna be looking anything less than my best for when we actually get to meet irl for the first time. Maybe if I'm lucky I'll get enough money for my birthday to get a flight to NC ;)
I didn't actually get cake :/ my birthday was still pretty good though. your parents are mean banning you from your computer I miss talking to you as often as we could. Unfortunately I don't think I can afford a flight to NC with the £50 that I got otherwise I'd be on an airplane right now rather than messaging you from here.'Bold text'
I'm now down to £20 and I don't know why that last message says bold text at the end coz I didn't type that. I know I should wait until you reply instead of just bombarding you with messages but the fact that we live too far apart to see each other irl is bad enough, not even being able to talk to you online is just torture. My stepdad said he was gonna give my stuff back once his programme finished and now he won't and now he doesn't want me watching Netflix because he thinks the stuff I watch is stupid and uneducational. I wish I could leave and go and find you or at least I wish that you could be here to cheer me up.
happy late bithday! i wish i could properly give you a present, i have a good one in mind *la la la lenny*
i dont care if you bombard me with messages, i like reading your messages and oml i thought there was a spider on my screen just now ;~; im also nerrrrvous for this evening even though ive performed in front of a large audience before with a lot more pressure before and not been super nervous, im not sure whats causing it this time
also i beat Red Dead Redemption Saturday i think and it was soooooo sad oml, i thought it wouldnt be like that but no the game is just gonna go and piss all over my good mood ;~: the game was still good
my phone is so stupid I hate it right now! I kept checking to see if you messaged me and my phone said you haven't so I didn't reply right away.
Don't be nervous about your performance because I bet it'll be great! I don't know when you can message me but pleeeeeease make it soon.
I was thinking about not going to school today coz I don't feel well but mum made me go anyway :/ I'm surprised I haven't had anything else confiscated because I kinda tried to trick my stepdad and I'm not sure whether or not he's figured it out yet.
If I don't respond to your next measage within 2 hours it's probably because I've coughed myself to death. *is coughing rn* I've been non stop coughing and now my throat is super painful and I feel awful but knowing my mum I won't get the day off school tomorrow.
I spoke to my granny on Skype and I may be able to talk to her about her taking me to Ireland when she's back in the UK so that means I might not have to run away to meet up with you when you next go to Ireland!
I hope your chorus performance went well (Im sure it did) and I'll keep checking for when you next message and hopefully I'll see it soon enough to reply right away.
I REEEEALLY REEEEALLY REEEEALLY REEEEALLY LOVE YOU!!! <3 <3 <3
its so cold here now ;~; the temperature is already dipping below freezing and i can barely feel my fingers and toes, i also probably got frostnip on my ear because who doesnt enjoy having their ear on a very cold piece of metal?
the performance went decent (i think) but im still exhausted from it and my throat is screwed up now, apparently im getting sick for the third time within a week or two :\
i hope you manage to quit coughing, i know how it feels to cough up a lung. I had a lung disease a couple times that i had to take a few different kinds of meds for and it sucked a load
i love you more than the internet! (thats a lot) <3 <3 <3
I got the day off today coz of my cough. I'm still ill though and I drank some disgusting medicine powder sachet stuff and it didn't even work :/ hopefully I'll be better soon though. I hope your throat is better soon too. Getting sick 3 times in one or two weeks sounds awful :(
Im gonna try and get the Internet working again on my tablet because chat was being slow and not working properly for me on my phone :/ hopefully I'll talk to you again soon. Can you tell me what times you'll be able to use the computers in your school to message me so that I can try and make sure I reply right away?
Right now I'm pretty sure my stepdad has changed the Internet password. I might ring up the Internet provider pretending to be the homeowner and tell them that my stepdads a hacker trying to steal my internet I'm not so sure that would work though :/
Happy back to the future day to you too by the way and I really REALLY love you more!
I think I'm old enough to board a plane by myself so if I can get enough money from somewhere I can fly over to NC. I'm pretty sure that from the UK the age requirement to board a plane by yourself is 16 so now I just need £1000 from somewhere
Pleeeeeease can you beg your parents to let you on your computer to message me? Tell them I'd reeeeeeally appreciate it if they let you message me because I'm really sad rn that I can't message you as often as usual.
Also mum's making me live at dads so my life sucks a little rn :/ I don't even have a bed at dads house and the walls are mouldy ;~;
I'm at my cousins christening party rn but there's so many people and idek the majority of them. I hate when my family expect me to be super social with everyone and then when I'm not they yell at me and call me antisocial. I really wish you could message me right now coz I really really miss messaging you. Tell your parents that banning you from your computer was unreasonable!
Loads of people have been drawing SU characters in Halloween costumes but I haven't seen a witch peridot yet so I drew one. I haven't drawn in ages coz I'm so bad at it but I had to because the pointyness of witch hats fits peridot's Dorito hair perfectly! How has no one else noticed this and drawn witch Peri?
sorry i had to leave the other night, my dad came home :( i dont know if i had an oppurtunity to message you yesterday, i spent most of the day lying down trying not to choke to death :\ at least on the bright side i dont have the strength to cough anymore
last night my mum said some rough things cos she was super angry about something and i dont like the thngs she says
i love you more! <3 <3 <3 i wish i had more time to message you :\
I really hope you get better soon. I wish I could be with you right now to at least try and do something and help you get better I feel useless being here while you're not well. Also I worry.
What did your mum say? My mum is constantly stressed so she says some pretty mean stuff to me sometimes but I'm used to it now. Tell your mum to make sure she doesn't say anything you don't like in front of me or I'll say some worse things back then take you somewhere far away and not let her speak to you again until she apologises!
I love you most! <3 <3 <3 I wish I could have replied sooner
GO TO HOSPITAL OR SOMETHING! please! I'm gonna find a way to get to NC and somehow magically make you better even if it gets me killed, arrested or grounded!
Tell your mum to take a chill pill.
I love you mosterer <3 <3 <3
I think my mum wants me to move to my granny's house in Spain next Summer :/ I like Spain but I prefer the cold tbh. Btw I'm 99.9% sure my granny would let you stay in Spain with me if you want so if your parents would let you then you could stay with me in Spain for as long as you want.
I need a get rich quick plan so that I can book a flight to NC.
my mum decided to paint her face like a creepy doll and ran in with a fake knife that I thought was real at first. It had a shiny plastic blade (that to be fair did look kind of real with my less than great eyesight) that you can push in so when you Stab someone with it the blade goes into the handle and it looks like the blade is actually stabbed in the person. Anyway I didn't know it was a fake knife and she ran in and stabbed me in the leg and I thought I'd actually been stabbed for a sec but I was in to much shock to register pain or something or the blade was so sharp I didn't feel it idk but I freaked out for a sec until I realised it was fake :/ then mum started stabbing my brother's teddies and he shuT himself in the kitchen. My mum does stuff like to me all the time tbh so I should have realised sooner that it was a fake knife.
I'm so glad you were able message me back. Not that I thought you wouldn't.
I hope the funeral wasn't too sad.
I have a sleeping chihuahua puppy on me right now I'll see if I can get a pic. Im out of Data at the moment but I've got quite a bit of credit left to pay for more data so I'll be able to message you still anyway.
Happy whatever you said and I love you mostererererererererererererererererererererererererererererererererererererer! <3 <3 <3
It's okay. Getting a message from you is worth the wait.
I hope your headache gets better soon. Do you know how much longer until your parents let you back on your computer? Even though I dont mind waiting until you get a chance to message me I really miss messaging you all the time
ugh why did i take the second chorus class!? *cri cos headache is like 100x magnified after them high notes*
my eyesight used to be good and then i was exposed to the internet, ive needed glasses for a very long time but i still dont even have any, which my eyes arent even bad. my vision has been awful cos of the headache tho, there are some places i cant see and its not fun to have multiple blindspots, the other places i can see arent working well either tho so if i try to do things like pick stuff up i miss and end up hitting my hands on tables and whatnot :c
i also just remembered that im getting my room completely redecorated, which is great in the long run, but i dont want to do anything involving that today, i also have to visit my aunt and i have a presentation i need to work on and probably math stuff :c
i think my room will be gr8 when its done, but i get to smell paint for a while. I still have to get my phone back, apparently im untrustworthy to my parents and im like "but what if im about to get murdered? how am i gonna ring you guys to save me and what if i get killed? how r u guys gonna handle another dead child? (i wouldnt ask that)" ill get my phone back soon tho and then i will text you but i dont think ill be able to call much, idk i gtg now, bye i love you
i wAnt to dance rn, i wish i could throw a party or something
i feel so hyper, like the same feeling as doing loads of cocaine or maybe meth (i dont know what its like to do cocaine or meth but i imagine its a similair feeling), perhaps its the meds i took
oml i dont think i mentioned it but someone asked me to sing stronger than you in a talent show and i was like lol do u think im gonna sing in front of everyone? and then i realised they didnt know what happened last year when i had to sing in front of ppl so i just said no *shrug*
i wish I could go to a party with you or something.
What happened last year when you had to sing in front of people? One of my teachers asked me to sing in front of the rest of the school once even though I said no so I just didn't go into school on the day they told me to sing. I really can't sing at all and even if I could I don't think I'd be able to sing in front of loads of people :/
The teacher is sat at the opposite side of the classroom but I'm sure they can see me on my phone. If you message me later and I don't message back right away it's probably because I've got my phone taken off me. I'm meant to be doing the planning for a science practical I did last month but it's really boring and I can't really remember what the experiment was about.
i wish you could too, im a very fun person at parties, and then we could have some extra fun afterwards *lenny*
the science teacher was forcing people to sing and she was trying to make me sing and i had like 7 anxiety attacks within a day and more later on, i didnt sing tho but i got a bad grade for not doing it, which is totally unfair in my opinion
im supposed to make a report on biomedical engineers and its very boring, at least i get to use a computer tho cos i dont want to do stuff, and apparently we are supposed to have a lockdown today so thats cool i guess maybe
i love you more than i love dragons and dragons are my second favourite thing in the entire world
Ive just gotten a load more data on my phone so I should be able to reply to any messages you get chance to send me within at least two hours. Also I should be able to use the wifi again soon which will mean I won't have to use my phone all the time so I should always have enough data to message you from my phone.
I'm freaking out right now because I keep thinking there's spiders everywhere. Theres probably not but since that time months ago when a spider crawled on me I keep thinking therell be more. *checks for spiders* nope, no spiders. I hate spiders.
Gonna try and get some sleep now. I love yoooooou <3 <3 <3 message soon, please?
my hand burns with a searing, fiery pain and it looks like i literally shoved my fingertips into a pile of ash >.< i also realised that i can infact draw the little shits from fnaf, if they werent so goddamn creepy i wouldnt have to smudge the shading in and my fingers wouldnt be grey and in pain
i hate spiders too, i tend to check in certain places in my room before im willing to sleep cos of a dream i had where the spider was just sitting there waiting for me and it was like, an australian spider or something *shudders*
did you know that im richer than amurica?
i hope you sleep well *insert lenny here* i love you more <3 <3 <3
I just read the archery page on Wikipedia and it is the biggest load of crap I've ever read. I'm tempted to rewrite the whole thing because whoever made that page had no idea what they were talking about whatsoever.
It's supposed to snow here this week and there's already Christmas songs on the radio so I'm already really excited for Christmas this year although it would be so much better if I could spend Christmas with you. I might wrap myself up and send myself to you as a present ;) I did find some ribbon in the end
It rained all night and it's gotten a little warmer so I'm not so sure I believe the weather forecast saying it'll snow.
I already have some candy canes ready for Christmas but I'll probably eat them all before it's even December.
I really really want the Christmas gift. I wish I could afford to fly to NC but I am saving up some money so I should at least be able to get a ferry to Ireland whenever you go there.
Any chance your parents will let you back on your computer anytime soon? I want to be able to message you more and I never know when you're able to message me so I can't reply right away. If you message me today I'll try to reply ASAP.
I really want to put all the Christmas decorations up but it's not even December yet :/ I went to a garden centre today and looked at all the Christmas trees and decorations and that along with all the Christmas songs playing on the radio made me feel really Christmasy(totally a word). I also got two cacti. Every single time I go to a garden centre I buy at least two cacti although everyone else hates them Because they're all over the house "making mess" but I don't care coz cacti are awesome
Okay so now that I've sent you a long boring message about my mostly uneventful day you have to send me a long message next time you're on the wiki because it's the rules of messaging (except it's not because I can't be arsed trying to edit the wiki rules with my phone). In seriousness you don't HAVE to write a long message. I just really miss being able to talk with you on chat or skype everyday. Are your parents likely to let you back on your computer anytime soon so that you can message me more? (sometimes if I hit the wrong letter my phone wants to correct message to massage).
I was in a English trial exam so I couldn't reply :( I have so many exams and trial exams this year and it's awful ;~;
Im twinning with everyone today. I really h8 these stupid school uniforms. People in America are lucky getting to wear what they want for school.
By the way I was just wondering if you know how much it costs to ship a box big enough to fit a person in it all the way to America because I might have enough money and ribbon to ship myself to you now if you still want. Is purple ribbon okay?
It's 1:30 and I have an exam tomorrow so I should probably be asleep but I drank too much coffee.
The Christmas lights turn on in town tomorrow :D they normally have real reindeer and Fireworks and stuff but it'll probably be cold. I really wish you could go to see the lights, fireworks, reindeer and everything else with me. I wouldn't even mind if we didn't go to see the lights, I'd be happy spending time with you doing anything.
Mum said no to Christmas decorations until December but I want to put them all up next time she goes out because I love Christmas. If you were here I could hang up some mistletoe for us to stand under.
My granny just told me she had a present for me and dropped a dead woodlouse on my hand ;~;
I tried on one of my granny's old wigs and took a load of stupid selfies yesterday because she left it lying around. I looked COMPLETELY different and kinda funny. I really need to stop taking stupid selfies.
Also I went to the cinema today.
I also broke my glasses and can't see too well. At least it means I have an excuse not to do any work in school.
My family hate me, half my school hate me and I've been grounded again even though I wasn't completely ungrounded from last time. My parents will never take my phone though! NEVER!
I have a very important question for you that I need to know the answer to immediately! Do you like mince pies? Everyone I know either absolutely loves them or hates just thinking about them. As soon as my school starts selling mince pies for Christmas all my friends argue about whether they're delicious or disgusting every single lunch time. It's vital that I know your opinion of then!
sorry for sending loads of messages before you get chance to reply.
I just remembered I ate all the candy canes and now there's none left ;~;
You should steal one of your parents phones and call me on it. That's probably not a good idea actually.
I'm gonna make a new page on the wiki called Lapis Lapasta. I think I'm just a little bit hyper this morning for some reason. Please message back soon and don't forget to answer my very important, relevant and completely not random question.
Its flooding everywhere in the UK rn. Its not bad where I am though because I live quite high up but theres still a lot of rain and mud.
Good luck beating Muffet I heard shes hard to beat
I got kicked out because my stepdad somehow found out that I'd managed to get on the internet and he got really mad and tried to take my phone but I hid it so he took all my stuff from my room and told me to pack my bags and leave.
I just found an emoji on my tablet that looks like a lenny face.
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TOMORROW! I shall spend the whole of the chistmas holidays sleeping and playing games and sleeping. Feel free to message me at any point and I shall reply. If you dont want to message me at any point then thats also fine although I would prefer that you do message me at some point preferably sooner rather than later.
a recap of my week: monday, i had a performance that i appeared 3 times in, tuesday sucked, yesterday i got to sing for little kids all day and listen to metallica live kinda, today i dunked on someone and tomorrow i get to help everyone waste time
undertale is a winner
i was on the same ~ with about three other people today when i duNked on someone
Zelda is better because Link takes waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay less damage from snakes than Frisk does. Stupid Frisk! Or maybe i just cant avoid them because i havent played a game using a keyboard in forever idk. Anyway i now officially hate snakes unless theyre green.
DAMN IT! Apparently the name Frisk activates hard mode -_-
Luck is REALLY not on my side today. First I drew on the teacher's board with a pen not realising it was permenant marker and not being able to get it off even when all my friends are helping. Then we decided to have a party in one of the school science labs and we blew up the super expensive speackers and idk who has to pay for them! Then we set the lab on FIRE so people had to stamp it out before it spread and everyone legged it out of school before the smoke alarms went off and we went home early then i somehow accidentally turned the computer off with my knee while playing undertale and then i found out id activated hard mode!
The lab is a total mess! Its ridiculous! Also people were drinking the experiments from the previous class and nobody knows what it actually was.
I just started playing not on hard mode and now flowey is breaking the fourth wall again and how much does this game break the forth wall? Im so confused rn! I dont think i should have played hard mode first.
Nobodys dead now and im really enjoying Undertale so far. I was told to stop playing it and go to bed but i dont want to :( its not THAT late. Actually its very early, the sun hasnt even risen yet. I never really got why people loved Earthbound so much but Undertale is pretty great.
ive just got back from food shoppping. ive been food shopping all week and i need to go food shopping AGAIN tomorrow. Im going out to do MORE shopping in a a few mins but i'll be on chat until then if you want to talk.
i just clicked on videos on this wiki by mistake and the first video to come up was justin bieber and the second was rebecca black. I think its because i put them on your profile that time. When was the last time you checked your profile btw
Ive seen a few funny undertale videos on youtube. I hadnt seen that one before though. Ive just realised i dont even know what the date is today. WHEN IS CHRISTMAS? How many days? Im really bored rn because im meant to be sleeping but im drinking coffee and now i cant sleep and i cant get up because i'll wake everyone :/
I have a cold! Nooooooo i dont wanna be ill for christmas!
Trying to beat Undyne on genocide is driving me insane! And i forgot to drink my coffee and it got cold! ;~;
Just in case you dont get chance to message again until after christmas because i know christmas is super busy and stuff for lots of people im gonna wish you a merry christmas now so MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
Ive got a game about robots where you make your own anime robot avatar and then you fight giant monsters and aliens with guns and giant swords and you can ride around in bigger robots and make friends with weird robots and aliens. I havent actually played it yet coz its one of my christmas presents but it sounds awesome and theres lightsaber swords and even gianter swords for the giant robots your robot can ride around in.